Thusrday....aka Friday eve....

O.k. people...I am feeling a lil and lil . I am so ready to get outta here that I am tapping my foot...nervously. I don't tap my foot, but today I'm a tappin away...... maybe I can tap my way into Friday and on into the weekend. I need this weekend to come and come quick!

Work is just work. And I am ready to leave this job. No not just today, but forever. I think that this is why I wake up everyday and question whether I want to call in or not and try to come up with a plausible excuse that would enable me to stay at home guilt free. I usually don't come up with something I deem worthy to pitch to my boss or just don't wanna deal with her attitude, so I come in. Every morning, I go through the same cycle, rinse & repeat the next morning.I have become the "drone" worker. There is no excitement and no great desire to do better or even to be better in this current environment. Apathy about ones job is a terrible thing, no? I feel that this job is sucking the life outta me. That is not me. This is not how I function. Anyone that knows me, knows that I am way more ambitious than "this" place that I find myself resting.

I have got to get out of here! Moving on and changing is the best thing for me to do.

There HAS TO BE SOMETHING BETTER! Many people say that with my personality that I'd be great at PR or something of the like. I agree and have come to accept that in general I am usually well liked upon first encounters and I have a knack for being able to talk to almost anybody. You know the saying "everyone has something that they are naturally good at... you just need to find it"? Well, the aforementioned qualities are mine. But Robyn, you say, those are qualities, not actual "things" that you are good at. I say, "exactly". And though I might be "great" at PR, at this point in my life, I CANNOT monetarily afford to start a career path ovuh and be somebody's PR intern making $7.50 an hour or sum shit! I have a family and we gotta eat! So, I find myself in this vicious circle.....

I have yet to find how I can parlay my natural "people skills" into actual cash, dinero...you know CHEDDA that I can get paid a decent wage to do! A smile AIN'T gon get no dayum bills paid! And a good attitude AIN'T gon help ya if you have no idea what you want to do. So I guess today I actually feel more so than anything. I'm praying for clarity tomorrow.