Tuesday, October 02, 2007

For the love of Money.... or lack thereof...



I love this picture because it sums up how I've been feeling. In general, fuck it. I am so broke with this new "salary" (if you didn't read the previous stuff....my Salary was REDUCED by $8,000 a year)that it isn't funny.

Me & my husband argued yesterday about money and our "budget" and what needs to change(all day during work mind you) and I am so tired of thinking about it. I just need to find another job that pays me what I need to be paid. All this is coming about (mostly) because in the last year my salary has been reduced by $15,000 a year and we have absolutely NO room to do SHIT at this point!!! No room to take a trip, no room to save, no room to do ANYTHING! Hell, until my salary goes back up I stopped my 401k deduction! (say what you will, but I NEED that money right now, and though after taxes it's less, it still makes enough of a difference for me to justify doing it until I can figure out a way for my salary to increase).

He says "things need to change" and I say " we still have to live". It's not like we eat Chateaubriand & Lobster served with a fine vintage wine every night! And it's not like this will be forever. What it IS, it that we have a child in daycare, we have a HIGH AS HELL house note, we have 2 cars notes(I for one LOVE my car and am NOT giving that bitch up, nor can I because it's a lease), and student loans that total about $650 a month! He talks about "stuff we need to decrease" and all I can see are the 3 credit cards that need to be decreased, but that is a project.... not a "we can pay them off right now" type of thing. Yeah,o.k...... I'll be honest.... there are a few things that can be decreased as well (i.e the cable, shopping for clothes, cell phone bill,etc.) but in general, MOST of our costs are fixed (i.e. house, water, electric, gas, student loans, our son's daycare cost,etc.)!!! He is feeling stressed and this is stressing me out. Badly. One thing I DO know is this: if this company doesn't shit or get off the pot SOON..... I am out. Maybe sooner than later, becuase I want to NEED TO make more freakin money!

I am still looking for a new job and need to get moving on this front! QUICKLY. I know it will come and I am just staying prayerful because I am tired of going seemingly BACKWARDS in my career over the past freakin year!


***sigh***

Lata ya'll.

5 comments:

Too Serious said...

I feel you on this. I feel like stamping that mess on my forehead! Keep on looking and praying. It will all work itself out.

Diva said...

I am right there with you. I need to make more money too. With the baby in day care, I feel like I live paycheck to paycheck. Seriously.

Anonymous said...

i shole feel ya. now my kids are in after care only, but i'm still paying off all them credit cards i ran up when they were in day care. and who can live without cable?
dmac

YouToldHarpoTaBeatMe said...

I have a girlfriend that was in the same scenario. She got out of the military...got a nice sized "severance" pay. She had to make due until she got a decent job. She took on an entry-level federal job....Someone her friend knew just HAPPENED to drop her resume on a heavy hitters desk. She's had a check twice the size of the one she made in the military.

I said all that, to say this....

KEEP PRAYING! IT'S COMING!!!

The Goddess said...

Girl, I think WE ALL know what you're feeling. I know I need to get on my job search thing something serious. It just sucks cause I feel like I'm going backward also.

And I know about those daycare cost cause I had 3 in daycare at one time when they were much younger and them daycare bills killed me. I know I don't want to put the baby in daycare because it IS so expensive and I know he will have a SUPER FIT. What to do what to do.....

I guess things have a way of turning around so I'll be praying for me and YOU both.