Today is a very sad day for me. No, not for the usual reason like death or somethin’ but due to the fact that my girl that I worked with got fired on Friday. This has all been due to a terrible drawn-out series of events culminating in this catastrophe. Some her fault, some (I feel) catalystically (<----is that a word??) caused by my boss and her hard-asshole like ways.
I posted about my girl not too long ago because she had let herself and self-esteem get sucked in the undercurrent of depression and I saw her heading down this road (i.e. calling off when she has NO paid-time,being late because she’s fed up with how my bosses apathy shows through in how she treated my girl,etc.). To refresh ya’ll, my girl had a miscarriage and sunk into (what I believe was ) post-partum depression. She was off for a month without pay mind you, and due to the ensuing financial woes, sunk deeper and deeper into not wanting to come to work, calling off…..ya’ll see the pattern. My boss, while it is NOT her job to be a friend to my girl, CHOSE to make shit more difficult because she is a miserable white woman who tried to have kids and had 6 miscarriages herself, so early in my girl’s pregnancy, she was TRIPPIN about her having extreme morning sickness. Anywho…..fast forward……
Because she had NO paid time to take, she started getting written up for her absences. She had gone through the whoooooooooooole progression of discipline and seemed unphased. She simply had had it with my bioss and this job. It disturbed me, but I held onto a sly glimmer of hope that she would NOT let herself seep deeper up under the damn rug. But she did. Continually. I had people (BLACK People. That knew her and were super-cool with her) ask me “is she on drugs??” I would reply “no, I don’t think so….she is depressed”. I still don’t think so and STILL think she is depressed. Things just got to the point where she was totally disgusted by everythign this job represented. How can you tell someone that they're fuckign up their lives when their ears are sealed shut? She would not heed ANY of my suggestions to go to a psychologist or SOME type of doctor to get herself checked out. She lost weight and though she is a VERY pretty girl, she began to take on a thin and tired look. This is a girl who used to pride herself on being “together” and it is as if her life just got too much to bear and just when she thought she could lick it, it sucked her in.
You see, this girl has has more family problems and more people who depended on her than the law allows and she now has no job. I feel for her, I really do. But I will also miss my friend. She was my confidante in a sea of drama and my oasis in this desert wasteland I call my job. I looked forward to coming to work becuse I knew I had a "buddy" that at one time as least, I could depend on. I can only liken it to the feeling of being at a new high school on the first day and seeing your DAWG and immediately feeling at ease because you had "someone" there whom you knew. It was like that. Though we were from different backgrounds, we were so similar in nature, disposition and thoughts that we'd sometimes finish each others sentences. Not, I know you're probably saying "well, damn, it AIN'T like the girl is DEAD or something...ya'll can hang out". I know we can, but there was just nothing like having her here and being able to count on her presence to get me through the tough days at this job. I mean, this IS where I spend MOST of my waking hours. Think about it. I really feel alone and like I have no one to watch my back. Sad, huh?
But I'll make it through. I betcha one thing, my boss SHO won't hire anyone she thinks that I'l become friends with agian. LOL She'll probably hire an older white woman! LOL
Monday, November 21, 2005
Thursday, November 10, 2005
The return of Tendentious Thursdays!
What the hell is wrong with this guy???
Living Ken Doll
This guy is just toooo much for me ya’ll
Read the story Here
See….this is when you have waaaaaaaaaay too much “disposable income” and when you have waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay too much time on your hands. This clown had pec implants (hmm……looks like tits to me), chin implants, BICEP implants (dude! Are you serious???), and a cleft chin to name a few things he had done.
Why do white folks (and some black folks) feel the need to go to the ridiculous extreme to keep youth?!! I mean, I am not against a lil lipo or a lil tummy tuck or a lil nose job, but PLEASE, for the love of ALL that’s NOT plastic and filled with saline, DON’T get like 20 things changed on your body!
Now, see, me, I have had plastic surgery too. *Gaaaaaaasp* Yes, I have. I had a breast reduction in 1994. Hey I just had my 11th anniversary!!! (shut the HELL UP ZED…. I ALLLLLLLLREADY know your thoughts on this!) But I had plastic surgery to help decrease the boob-a-licious-ness that was outta-fuckin-control. What size was I pre-op??? don’t know, but I do know that them thangs were OUT.OF CONTROL and I hated the attention. It was horrible. I felt like a freakshow and I felt disrespected when men I didn’t know from Al on the corner felt it necessary to exclaim "GotDAMN baby, you got some big ass titties!!!!!". Today, however, I am perfectly content with the attention that the "girls" get, and though NOTHING like they were, I catch an ogle here and there *smile* and that's perfectly fine with me. So, I'm lovin plastic surgery too!
Anywho…back to the lecture at hand….I just felt compelled to put this picture up man! Is there ever really a need for plastic surgery??? Listen, me & a co-worker of mine were talking about another co-worker who we think NEEDS plastic surgery (she is in DESPERATE need of a facelift.) She is a cute, jazzy grandma of 2, just recently lost weight (is a size 4) and has a spunky haircut. The problem? She looks like she is 61 or 62 and she is only 49.
Now, I am not usually a super strong advocate of plastic surgery, BUT…..she looks old and it just doesn’t make any sense. She needs a facelift and I mean NOW! But some (as we can see above) just take it tooooo far! Period!
Now, this may sounds contradictory, but all beauty fades and when you have to go to the lengths above to get that level of “perfect/flawlessness”…… you have gone too far…….
Vanity……my favorite Deadly Sin……. :-)
Living Ken Doll
This guy is just toooo much for me ya’ll
Read the story Here
See….this is when you have waaaaaaaaaay too much “disposable income” and when you have waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay too much time on your hands. This clown had pec implants (hmm……looks like tits to me), chin implants, BICEP implants (dude! Are you serious???), and a cleft chin to name a few things he had done.
Why do white folks (and some black folks) feel the need to go to the ridiculous extreme to keep youth?!! I mean, I am not against a lil lipo or a lil tummy tuck or a lil nose job, but PLEASE, for the love of ALL that’s NOT plastic and filled with saline, DON’T get like 20 things changed on your body!
Now, see, me, I have had plastic surgery too. *Gaaaaaaasp* Yes, I have. I had a breast reduction in 1994. Hey I just had my 11th anniversary!!! (shut the HELL UP ZED…. I ALLLLLLLLREADY know your thoughts on this!) But I had plastic surgery to help decrease the boob-a-licious-ness that was outta-fuckin-control. What size was I pre-op??? don’t know, but I do know that them thangs were OUT.OF CONTROL and I hated the attention. It was horrible. I felt like a freakshow and I felt disrespected when men I didn’t know from Al on the corner felt it necessary to exclaim "GotDAMN baby, you got some big ass titties!!!!!". Today, however, I am perfectly content with the attention that the "girls" get, and though NOTHING like they were, I catch an ogle here and there *smile* and that's perfectly fine with me. So, I'm lovin plastic surgery too!
Anywho…back to the lecture at hand….I just felt compelled to put this picture up man! Is there ever really a need for plastic surgery??? Listen, me & a co-worker of mine were talking about another co-worker who we think NEEDS plastic surgery (she is in DESPERATE need of a facelift.) She is a cute, jazzy grandma of 2, just recently lost weight (is a size 4) and has a spunky haircut. The problem? She looks like she is 61 or 62 and she is only 49.
Now, I am not usually a super strong advocate of plastic surgery, BUT…..she looks old and it just doesn’t make any sense. She needs a facelift and I mean NOW! But some (as we can see above) just take it tooooo far! Period!
Now, this may sounds contradictory, but all beauty fades and when you have to go to the lengths above to get that level of “perfect/flawlessness”…… you have gone too far…….
Vanity……my favorite Deadly Sin……. :-)
Wednesday, November 09, 2005
Babee Munkee
Hey good people, what it be like? *hee hee*
This has been such a busy week for me that I have been neglecting my blog horribly!!! I have so much work to do and therefore shant take up too much of your time.
I would like to thank everyone who gave me the many encouraging words regarding the last blog I did about my life in Hell (work) :-) It was definitely a breath of fresh air to vent and you guys' concern was definitely felt! I luv ya'll !! *sniff, sniff*
So, I decided to keep it short & sweet and put up some pics of my own little BABEE MUNKEE from Halloween ! Zed has been DYING for me to put these pics up, so there ya go!!! LOL
And YES!!! HE.WAS.A.BABEE.MUNKEE for Halloween!!!! :-)
Enjoy!
My sweetpea!
He just HAD to feed Mommy a potato chip !!
Just happy to be a munkee :-)
Alright ya'll...lata.....
Be e-z & watch the bananna peels,
r.
This has been such a busy week for me that I have been neglecting my blog horribly!!! I have so much work to do and therefore shant take up too much of your time.
I would like to thank everyone who gave me the many encouraging words regarding the last blog I did about my life in Hell (work) :-) It was definitely a breath of fresh air to vent and you guys' concern was definitely felt! I luv ya'll !! *sniff, sniff*
So, I decided to keep it short & sweet and put up some pics of my own little BABEE MUNKEE from Halloween ! Zed has been DYING for me to put these pics up, so there ya go!!! LOL
And YES!!! HE.WAS.A.BABEE.MUNKEE for Halloween!!!! :-)
Enjoy!
My sweetpea!
He just HAD to feed Mommy a potato chip !!
Just happy to be a munkee :-)
Alright ya'll...lata.....
Be e-z & watch the bananna peels,
r.
Tuesday, November 01, 2005
Work Tirade/Angry Black Woman moment
This post is about the more frustrated part of me. And since this is my blog, I can blog about whatever so if you are not in the mood for a bitch-fest, please tune-out now and turn the channel to the "Shyts and Giggles" station.
O.K., now that that disclaimer is out of the way onto the topic of discussion. I am in a terrible slump at work. I routinely shirk my duties, putting things off that I know will not be discovered. Or something that if it is discovered I can tell a lil lie to whomever the request came from and fix it real quick. But there are also a few things floating around that I haven't done, that if discovered (while not the end of the world) that I DIDN’T do them, would lead my boss straight to writing my ass up.
Most of these things are ones that I can do easily and that would only take 5 minutes, but 90% of the time I just ”don’t feel like it”. And this (i feel) is due to my horrible boss. I make a damn good salary with GREAT perks, but I HATE my boss! Do you know that I just had a WONDERFUL dream that I called her a bitch and then called her a STANKIN ASS BITCH to her face and I woke up feeling happier than I had felt in a LONG time????? (no for REAL, I'm NOT exaggerating) What the HELL does that say about the state of my affairs??? Work used to be meaningful and relevant. Now, I feel like it is “something that I must do” to get through the day. I know that part of this feeling is due to my stank-ass micromanaging boss. Nothing I do feels like it matters at this job. You see, if it ain’t her way, it’s pushed away. I stopped feeling valued long ago at this job.
**shrug**I care but I don’t.
It’s terrible. I live just above that line. What line?? The line of the “BIG FUCK UP”. I routinely get the EEOC charges that I am in charge of responding to, all of which have a deadline and I ROUTINELY call and ask for an extension. Even though, if it’s sent to me directly (and I don’t have to wait to get it 3rd party from another office that has let it sit around for a week) then I typically have like 3-4 weeks to do it. If I PUSH it, I can typically do a charge in a day (if I have all the facts I need) or less. So this tells you that I am just a procrastinator….... I procrastinate because I really don’t want to do it. There is NOOOOO reason that I should need to hide the charges from my boss when they come in just so that she will think that when I do present them to her that they JUST came i. But that then justifies me needing an extension. There is no reason for it. I swear, there is just something in me that (call it lazy) that does NOT like deadlines, does NOT like being told what to do and does NOT take kindly to any of the shit. I resist being fed authority like a Muslim resists being fed pork. I am soooo just NOT the “good and obedient” employee anymore and I REALLY need to own my own business.
**shrug** I care but I don’t.
And I know how hard jobs like this are to find (monetarily speaking). But the fact of the matter is, my boss killed my spirit to do a good job here a LONNNNNG time ago. And I mean probably from the 1st month I was here. I am very self-aware and KNEW from the 2nd or 3rd week here, that I would not like it here. Honestly, the only thing that has kept me here are the salary & perks and my girl that I work with. No….really……she is my one confidant in this whole place and because of a bad string of events in her life, and her subsequent frequent call off’s she has been written up for the last time, prior to being fired. And just like with me….she cares, but she doesn’t care. She is a single Mom and has NO damn family to depend on and yet being away from here is almost worth the subsequent struggle she will endure to find a job and regian her work ethic. My boss is like a cancer what infects everything. Maybe she only infects blacks, because this white man I work with deals with her JUST FINE. Hmmmmmph. But then again she respects him because he has knowledge that she flat-out does not. So, she can’t pull that “no matter what you say I know more than you do” card like she does with me and my girl.
I remember when I was BRIGHT EYED **blinka, blinka** and bushy-tailed. When I had HOPE that I could make a difference in the work world, when I thought that you (whites mostly) were innocent-before-being-proven-guilty. I remember. I am just in my mid 30’s. It wasn’t so long ago. I am jaded now. I constantly see whites (with mediocre at FUCKING BEST qualifications) being pumped and pushed RIGHT on up the damn food chain. White boys especially. You say "Robyn, that's just how it is"? I know, but I hate it nonetheless. Now, my anger isn't solely being taken out on whites I work with but it is REALLY being taken out on those that started this racist, elitist corporate working world we are in (i.e. the whites from way back,so I guess it does go back to them anyway). I hate it. I do not hate white people. I hate how the work world TREATS whites and "the rest of us" differently".
And being in HR has made me even MORE cynical and jaded because I SEE the shit that goes on and how salaries are pumped up (often un-fucking-justafiably) and how (for example)preference is given. There is this bitch who is a manager of a GLOBAL operation (who is as goofy and green as Howdy Doody) has 1)become a manager 2) has NEVER managed SHIT before and 3) is still here, just because she’s a white girl. Her predecessor had more than 15 years of experience and made almost 6 figures (she makes 1/2 of his salary...thank GOD they got that part on a somewhat equitable level) and was responsible for the management of the emergency notification system across the WHOLE WORLD for our client (one of the Big 3), but this chick who worked in the department RIGHT.OUTTA.COLLEGE, had NO mangement experience, gets put in there???? what in THEE fuck is that about???????
It.makes.me.sick.
Now in the meantime, my girl's whole JOB DESCIPTION changed,responsibilities increased waaaay past what she was doing (a level 2)when she came and outside of the scope of her original job description. She got no increase in pay and when she brought it to the attention of our boss, the bitch-ass VP of HR (with charts and graphs and statistics on wage ranges for her job in OUR area of the country mind you), she was shut the FUCK DOWN. She wanted a simple $2000 increase which would not have even taken her to the MEDIAN of the range of the job that she was really doing (a level 3 job), and my boss goes to talking about how she has to “check” and see if the regional director of compsation would go for it, because her job description as it stands does not accommodate that type of increase. Yeah, I know the name of the game is "get-as-much-out-of-muhfucka's-as-you-can-without-paying-them-more", but this was rediculous! You see, she was really doing this level 3 job, but getting a level 2 salary JUST because she doesn’t have a Bachelors. Her new description almost IDENTICALLY matches the one for a level 3.
Don’t you now that BITCH (my boss) hung her out to dry with that ole "the level 3 position requires a bachelor's" bullshit???? If it had been ME....baaaayby......shit would NOT have gone down like that. I would have made her and prove to me why this can't happen and we would've been talking to the president of our division about this shit. Cause you would have to PROVE to me why that other little phrase "a bachelors OR work equivalent" did NOT apply to my ass!! My boss dug her heels in and stuck on that shit as the reason she could NOT give her a raise and justified her “increase in responsibility” as the “other duties as assigned” part of damn near everyone’s job description. *smdh* I would have made a huge ass stink over THIS shit because you shall NOT work me like a Hebrew AND NOT pay my black ass. uh-uh. not gonna happen.
But yet I know of another assistant who got a RAISE AND got an assistant ( did you hear me???? the ASSISTANT was given AN ASSISTANT. WHAT.THE.FUCK????)because she “was doing sooooooo much work” and the “client approved the raise”. Whatever man. It seems like whenever it’s a black person, there ain’t no “client” approval, but when it comes to the whites, it gets rubber stamped and passed through before I can completely finish typing this sentence. It’s horrible. I think that I would not be so bitter about this if I wasn’t privy DIRECTLY to people’s situations, education and resulting salaries. ( I feel ya X.......I am DEFINITELY like the Dorothy AFTER her ass saw the inner workings of the damn wizard!)
This is why I HATE corporate America. I no longer trust ANYBODY (other than my girl I work with). I trust my girl for a couple of reasons. 1. I have known her for 4 years, during which time, we have become true friends and 2. she KNOWS intimately the treatment and corporate bullshit that I speak of since we work in the same department.
My fear? That I will go someplace else and still be JUST as jaded and really BE that angry black worker that white folks talk about. You see I used to take soooooo much SHIT and sarcasm and inappropriate commentary from my boss, whereas my girl NEVUH did. And guess what I discovered? SHE get’s more respect than I DO !! An assistant gets MORE respect than a manager! DA FUCK?????? I swear, she has ALWAYS been Q.U.I.C.K to check you if you are inappropriate. So, since a couple of years ago, I have been like “fuck that……that bitch disrespects ME, she will NOT get away with it”. I have found that the LESS you stand up for yourself, the more you get pissed on and MORE people will take your "kindness for weakeness". But you see the seeds had already been sewn when it comes to how my boss acts with me. Therefore,now, for each of her smart assed comments, I fire one RIGHT back at her ass. If I am getting pissed because I am trying to get a point across (calmly) and she just won’t listen and starts being a damn asshole, I inform her “O.K….. this conversation is over because I am getting upset” amd I walk OUT of her office. (yeah I'm surprised I wasn't fired already too, but it's because THAT bitch also knows she's wrong). But she keeeeps thinking that I am that person that I showed her in the beginning, and she continues to try me. That’s because that’s what I showed her. I inadvertently “taught” her how to treat me. She doesn’t get it now that I don’t take her shit.
Yeah, yeah, nig-a-ro's...I know, I know... I can hear you SCREAMING at me to leave this funky ass job before it overtakes me totally. I know, I know. I have become spoiled though. That is my achille's heel. I LOVE what the combo of what my husband and my salary allows me to do. And personally, I do NOT want to go into a job where I have to "Work like a slave" JUST to have the same salary. NOR can I afford to "stay at home". I just want a comfortable,pleasant work environment that pays well and doesn't make me want to snap at the LITTLEST thing at the end of the day. Because besides me having a heart-attack from the lack of adult stimulation, I would REALLY feel like I wasn't "doing anything worthwhile". I want to work, but I want it to be "smarter work" not "harder work". Who really wants to work like a slave???? I for one do not. Yeah, I hear you..... I hear that old saying "what does a man profit, if he loses his soul" (or something like that).....yeah, yeah I feel that too. Which is why I AM looking for another job. As a matter of fact, I will go do some MORE looking right now.
Cynically yours,
Robyn
O.K., now that that disclaimer is out of the way onto the topic of discussion. I am in a terrible slump at work. I routinely shirk my duties, putting things off that I know will not be discovered. Or something that if it is discovered I can tell a lil lie to whomever the request came from and fix it real quick. But there are also a few things floating around that I haven't done, that if discovered (while not the end of the world) that I DIDN’T do them, would lead my boss straight to writing my ass up.
Most of these things are ones that I can do easily and that would only take 5 minutes, but 90% of the time I just ”don’t feel like it”. And this (i feel) is due to my horrible boss. I make a damn good salary with GREAT perks, but I HATE my boss! Do you know that I just had a WONDERFUL dream that I called her a bitch and then called her a STANKIN ASS BITCH to her face and I woke up feeling happier than I had felt in a LONG time????? (no for REAL, I'm NOT exaggerating) What the HELL does that say about the state of my affairs??? Work used to be meaningful and relevant. Now, I feel like it is “something that I must do” to get through the day. I know that part of this feeling is due to my stank-ass micromanaging boss. Nothing I do feels like it matters at this job. You see, if it ain’t her way, it’s pushed away. I stopped feeling valued long ago at this job.
**shrug**I care but I don’t.
It’s terrible. I live just above that line. What line?? The line of the “BIG FUCK UP”. I routinely get the EEOC charges that I am in charge of responding to, all of which have a deadline and I ROUTINELY call and ask for an extension. Even though, if it’s sent to me directly (and I don’t have to wait to get it 3rd party from another office that has let it sit around for a week) then I typically have like 3-4 weeks to do it. If I PUSH it, I can typically do a charge in a day (if I have all the facts I need) or less. So this tells you that I am just a procrastinator….... I procrastinate because I really don’t want to do it. There is NOOOOO reason that I should need to hide the charges from my boss when they come in just so that she will think that when I do present them to her that they JUST came i. But that then justifies me needing an extension. There is no reason for it. I swear, there is just something in me that (call it lazy) that does NOT like deadlines, does NOT like being told what to do and does NOT take kindly to any of the shit. I resist being fed authority like a Muslim resists being fed pork. I am soooo just NOT the “good and obedient” employee anymore and I REALLY need to own my own business.
**shrug** I care but I don’t.
And I know how hard jobs like this are to find (monetarily speaking). But the fact of the matter is, my boss killed my spirit to do a good job here a LONNNNNG time ago. And I mean probably from the 1st month I was here. I am very self-aware and KNEW from the 2nd or 3rd week here, that I would not like it here. Honestly, the only thing that has kept me here are the salary & perks and my girl that I work with. No….really……she is my one confidant in this whole place and because of a bad string of events in her life, and her subsequent frequent call off’s she has been written up for the last time, prior to being fired. And just like with me….she cares, but she doesn’t care. She is a single Mom and has NO damn family to depend on and yet being away from here is almost worth the subsequent struggle she will endure to find a job and regian her work ethic. My boss is like a cancer what infects everything. Maybe she only infects blacks, because this white man I work with deals with her JUST FINE. Hmmmmmph. But then again she respects him because he has knowledge that she flat-out does not. So, she can’t pull that “no matter what you say I know more than you do” card like she does with me and my girl.
I remember when I was BRIGHT EYED **blinka, blinka** and bushy-tailed. When I had HOPE that I could make a difference in the work world, when I thought that you (whites mostly) were innocent-before-being-proven-guilty. I remember. I am just in my mid 30’s. It wasn’t so long ago. I am jaded now. I constantly see whites (with mediocre at FUCKING BEST qualifications) being pumped and pushed RIGHT on up the damn food chain. White boys especially. You say "Robyn, that's just how it is"? I know, but I hate it nonetheless. Now, my anger isn't solely being taken out on whites I work with but it is REALLY being taken out on those that started this racist, elitist corporate working world we are in (i.e. the whites from way back,so I guess it does go back to them anyway). I hate it. I do not hate white people. I hate how the work world TREATS whites and "the rest of us" differently".
And being in HR has made me even MORE cynical and jaded because I SEE the shit that goes on and how salaries are pumped up (often un-fucking-justafiably) and how (for example)preference is given. There is this bitch who is a manager of a GLOBAL operation (who is as goofy and green as Howdy Doody) has 1)become a manager 2) has NEVER managed SHIT before and 3) is still here, just because she’s a white girl. Her predecessor had more than 15 years of experience and made almost 6 figures (she makes 1/2 of his salary...thank GOD they got that part on a somewhat equitable level) and was responsible for the management of the emergency notification system across the WHOLE WORLD for our client (one of the Big 3), but this chick who worked in the department RIGHT.OUTTA.COLLEGE, had NO mangement experience, gets put in there???? what in THEE fuck is that about???????
It.makes.me.sick.
Now in the meantime, my girl's whole JOB DESCIPTION changed,responsibilities increased waaaay past what she was doing (a level 2)when she came and outside of the scope of her original job description. She got no increase in pay and when she brought it to the attention of our boss, the bitch-ass VP of HR (with charts and graphs and statistics on wage ranges for her job in OUR area of the country mind you), she was shut the FUCK DOWN. She wanted a simple $2000 increase which would not have even taken her to the MEDIAN of the range of the job that she was really doing (a level 3 job), and my boss goes to talking about how she has to “check” and see if the regional director of compsation would go for it, because her job description as it stands does not accommodate that type of increase. Yeah, I know the name of the game is "get-as-much-out-of-muhfucka's-as-you-can-without-paying-them-more", but this was rediculous! You see, she was really doing this level 3 job, but getting a level 2 salary JUST because she doesn’t have a Bachelors. Her new description almost IDENTICALLY matches the one for a level 3.
Don’t you now that BITCH (my boss) hung her out to dry with that ole "the level 3 position requires a bachelor's" bullshit???? If it had been ME....baaaayby......shit would NOT have gone down like that. I would have made her and prove to me why this can't happen and we would've been talking to the president of our division about this shit. Cause you would have to PROVE to me why that other little phrase "a bachelors OR work equivalent" did NOT apply to my ass!! My boss dug her heels in and stuck on that shit as the reason she could NOT give her a raise and justified her “increase in responsibility” as the “other duties as assigned” part of damn near everyone’s job description. *smdh* I would have made a huge ass stink over THIS shit because you shall NOT work me like a Hebrew AND NOT pay my black ass. uh-uh. not gonna happen.
But yet I know of another assistant who got a RAISE AND got an assistant ( did you hear me???? the ASSISTANT was given AN ASSISTANT. WHAT.THE.FUCK????)because she “was doing sooooooo much work” and the “client approved the raise”. Whatever man. It seems like whenever it’s a black person, there ain’t no “client” approval, but when it comes to the whites, it gets rubber stamped and passed through before I can completely finish typing this sentence. It’s horrible. I think that I would not be so bitter about this if I wasn’t privy DIRECTLY to people’s situations, education and resulting salaries. ( I feel ya X.......I am DEFINITELY like the Dorothy AFTER her ass saw the inner workings of the damn wizard!)
This is why I HATE corporate America. I no longer trust ANYBODY (other than my girl I work with). I trust my girl for a couple of reasons. 1. I have known her for 4 years, during which time, we have become true friends and 2. she KNOWS intimately the treatment and corporate bullshit that I speak of since we work in the same department.
My fear? That I will go someplace else and still be JUST as jaded and really BE that angry black worker that white folks talk about. You see I used to take soooooo much SHIT and sarcasm and inappropriate commentary from my boss, whereas my girl NEVUH did. And guess what I discovered? SHE get’s more respect than I DO !! An assistant gets MORE respect than a manager! DA FUCK?????? I swear, she has ALWAYS been Q.U.I.C.K to check you if you are inappropriate. So, since a couple of years ago, I have been like “fuck that……that bitch disrespects ME, she will NOT get away with it”. I have found that the LESS you stand up for yourself, the more you get pissed on and MORE people will take your "kindness for weakeness". But you see the seeds had already been sewn when it comes to how my boss acts with me. Therefore,now, for each of her smart assed comments, I fire one RIGHT back at her ass. If I am getting pissed because I am trying to get a point across (calmly) and she just won’t listen and starts being a damn asshole, I inform her “O.K….. this conversation is over because I am getting upset” amd I walk OUT of her office. (yeah I'm surprised I wasn't fired already too, but it's because THAT bitch also knows she's wrong). But she keeeeps thinking that I am that person that I showed her in the beginning, and she continues to try me. That’s because that’s what I showed her. I inadvertently “taught” her how to treat me. She doesn’t get it now that I don’t take her shit.
Yeah, yeah, nig-a-ro's...I know, I know... I can hear you SCREAMING at me to leave this funky ass job before it overtakes me totally. I know, I know. I have become spoiled though. That is my achille's heel. I LOVE what the combo of what my husband and my salary allows me to do. And personally, I do NOT want to go into a job where I have to "Work like a slave" JUST to have the same salary. NOR can I afford to "stay at home". I just want a comfortable,pleasant work environment that pays well and doesn't make me want to snap at the LITTLEST thing at the end of the day. Because besides me having a heart-attack from the lack of adult stimulation, I would REALLY feel like I wasn't "doing anything worthwhile". I want to work, but I want it to be "smarter work" not "harder work". Who really wants to work like a slave???? I for one do not. Yeah, I hear you..... I hear that old saying "what does a man profit, if he loses his soul" (or something like that).....yeah, yeah I feel that too. Which is why I AM looking for another job. As a matter of fact, I will go do some MORE looking right now.
Cynically yours,
Robyn
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